Tuesday, June 22, 2010

I RULE at Life...a week later

Unemployment BLOWS. Hell lets be honest employment blows but at least you get a check at the end of the week. This week though I've been given time to think about what I'm truly passionate about and what I really want to be when I grow up.

Everyone who knows me knows that I write a little bit. I have a flair for all things wordy. I love learning new words. I love laughing at people when they use words incorrectly. I love it. My fear with pursuing a career in writing is that I'll fail. Hard. I don't want to be the bitter high school English teacher who's book or script or whatever never saw the light of day. So I'll tell myself that I'm passionate about something that's slightly less failworthy (just made up that word). I'll be an awesome...ummm...doctor. We'll just ignore the fact that I generally dislike people and I suck at math. Dr. House does it and he's a total ass. We'll ignore the fact that he's a fictional TV doctor.

I've heard for years that this is what I should be doing. That doesn't lessen the fear any. I think, well I know I've allowed this fear to paralyze me. I try to write and I choke. So what better time than now to try to conquer the fear. I have a buttload (classy right? I'm such the lady) of time on my hands so why not go back to school get a degree in English (or even more scary journalism, gasp)? So time to put on my big girl panties (they're Yo Gabba Gabba, btw) and write. I'd already been in the process of getting back into school. I've picked an Associate Degree in Liberal Arts as to be prepared for the Bachelor's Degree in English. I'm scared to death. I don't know what the future holds.

My new motto is going to be: Failure (and teaching) is not an option.

Ya'll are gonna cheer me through this right?

Note: I love teachers! They are one of the many reasons I'm so passionate about writing. I'm forever grateful for all the awesome teachers that I had over the years. I, however, am no teacher. I will never have the patience that you guys have. So no shade. Teaching is just not something that I have a passion for.

Sidenote: Happy Birthday to my Best Chica-friend Forevers (forever, eva? Forever, eva...) Andydawg's Mom!!!

1 comment:

  1. Great post! I really believe that if you have the passion and you have the drive to succeed, you'll be able to do anything! Just stay focused and keep reminding yourself why you love doing what you do.

    Good Luck!